(The Lord says,) “Don’t tear your clothing in your grief, but tear your hearts instead.” Return to the Lord your God, for He is merciful and compassionate, slow to anger and filled with unfailing love. He is eager to relent and not punish. Joel 2:13
This verse seemed like the most appropriate one to begin writing my reflections once again. Gary’s heart was literally torn and the road back has required so much love, mercy and grace. We both have grown closer to God and one another realizing how truly loved we are by God and by our family and friends. God is always forgiving and welcoming His people back home. No one can out sin His grace. It often takes a rude awakening for us to come to this place of realization.
It is crucial to get to stand before His throne with all our pride and confidence that we can do it all by ourselves… stripped away and laying in a puddle around us. Only then do any of us get to know the meaning of His strength in our weakness. The road is littered with many who have fallen unable to continue but unwilling to admit their need of God’s strength. That is the ultimate sin because God stands ready to help each of us, all we have to do is ask.
Even after 43 days in the hospital, Gary and I still can forget that God is in charge. Has your own heart been broken and still you resist God’s loving kindness? This advent is the perfect time to awaken to His presence. Invite Him to fill the gaps and mend the tears. He can and will do so. Healing only happens when the dead is cleared away. Confess your sinfulness, willfulness and invite in Jesus the babe born in humble surroundings to teach us the true meaning of God’s love is weakness!
Lord, create in me a new heart. One that has been emptied of sin and selfishness. Let my heart beat for You!